Another Sleepless Night

I lay in bed, trying to sleep, my mind racing. I cannot sleep because I take my job so seriously that I am constantly afraid of messing up or not doing my best. I keep thinking of ways I could do things better, ways I could have done things differently. Keeps me up. Thankfully, I am at a job I love. I have great kids and loads of support. It is just this weird perfectionist tendancy that I have developed.

I also was cleaning out a box tonight and I found an old letter from a former camper of mine. This camper went to school in a town in the midst of a tragedy. I feel it is God telling me to write to this person and let them know I am praying for them. And then to actually pray for them. This doesn't help me sleep either.

Finally, trying to figure our where my life is going. I know what I am doing in regards to work, but all other things, finances, love life, etc. are up in the air. It is challenging. Part 3 of why I have difficulty sleeping.

That is all for now, hopefully I can get some sleep.

Music and emotion

I love how music can enhance your emotions. Right now I am listening to Ben Lee and his songs really fit with my current mood and are enhancing it. I am kind of feeling tired and mellow but becoming energetic. Which is really nice since earlier this morning I was full of worry (money matters) and now I am feeling more optimistic realizing that some of my bills have been completely paid off and I will never have to worry about them again! Thank you Ben Lee!